You DO have free will. What you have is conflicting desires. You are freely choosing first one thing, then another.
You WANT to be fat and fatter, and you WANT to have the approval of friends and family. These are not compatible goals and ONE of these is deep seated.
You CAN suppress your desires to be fat and gain to win approval. The question is do you want the approval enough to make, and stick with that choice.
It sounds like you to want to be fat and gain more, but have not yet come to grips with that. What you need is to accept what you want more and stop trying to have it both ways.
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